Sunday, July 24, 2011

thoughts from the past week

I have spent the last week with family from out of town. We had a family wedding that everyone came to Seattle for, including people from Boston. There was alot of things happening out of my norm. My daily plans were not the same, my workouts were not the same ( only made it to the gym three days out of seven, NOT normal for me), and I was faced with lots of food and meals out of my norm as well, including something so simple as my water intake, normally 1 gallon or more a day, and I know it was lower on some days, Let me tell you, my body noticed that. But I am proud to say, that even when faced with these different, and not really good choices, day after day, I still managed to do well. I even had a mint chocolate chip ice cream shake on Thursday, and a piece of wedding cake last night at the wedding. both by the way, incredibly yummy.

So this morning I woke up , and figured I had to face the scale. I was going to be a big girl and see what the damage was from the past few days of chaos. I stepped on the scale with my eyes closed, and when I opened them I was happy to see the number was exactly the same as it had been the week before. No damage had been done, which was a huge deal considering how much damage could have been done. the food around me for days was amazing. lots of carbs for sure!!

Someone had asked me if I still log all my food, always, even when its a bad choice. So I thought I would answer that here. but in two parts.
When I was losing, for two years, yes, I logged everything, everyday. I needed to do that, I needed to see what I had been eating, and having that written down also allowed me to be able to look back on it if I needed to.

Now, and for the past almost 9 months of maintaining, I still log all my foods, the only time I do not is when the whole day is going to be shot ( like the 4th of July, or Christmas). but if its just a meal gone wrong, or a special treat, I log it. Why not? when I drink alcohol I log it and try to keep it within my calorie goal for the day. IF I dont, then the only one I am kidding is myself. Right??

Now I say time and time again, this is what works for ME, and what works for me, may not work for everyone else. I can only tell you what worked and works, for me.

On a totally different subject, I had alot of hurt feelings these past few days, but with those hurt feelings came the realization that unless you have walked in someone else's shoes, you really have no place to judge. And unless you were once a 330 pound 38 year old woman who finally took control of her weight and her life , and have done it in the most healthiest way possible, You really have no right to tell that person how she should be now. Because you do not know, just as you have no clue what it was like to have been that 330 pound person, you do not know what is the right way for her to maintain her weight. ( and by 'her' I mean ME) . and If I have to count calories and eat chicken every day for the rest of my life to do it, I am ok doing it. :) I have no hard feelings, just hurt that there is such little understanding .

Have a happy and Healthy week!


  1. Hi, I have only just found your blog, but I wanted to say that you are an amazing person. It takes so much courage and determination to turn your life around and you have done it. So good to hear you managed to make good choices, even away from home, and even enjoy some treats - no one should miss out on wedding cake! I think you're completely right about people being judgemental - we all need a reminder sometimes that the we are all different and the most compassionate thing we can do is not to make snap judgements about people. It sounds like you are comfortable enough in yourself though to keep up your good work and know what is best for you. Hope you have a great week!

  2. Sarah ,thank you for your sweet words! IT is hard to not let the judgement get to you, and when its from people you love, its even harder, cause you hurt even mmore by it. I have to remember that the level of understanding where I am coming from isnt there, only cause they have never been where I was, or are where I am. I have understanding of that , and I will try to take comfort in knowing that.
    Thanks again!