Christmas Eve and Christmas day.
I ate whatever I wanted for two days. I also drank whatever I wanted for two days ( only induldged in the alcoholic drinks). I baked breads and cookies for two days prior to this, knowing I would be eating them. I ate more sugar in those two days than I have eaten in a year, I AM NOT KIDDING YOU.
Cookies with frosting, many of them, cran berry bread, gingerbread, more cookies with frosting, chocolate, candy canes, cranberry bliss bars from Starbucks, and that is just the sugar. I also ate pizza, chips and dip, prime rib, stuffing, roll with butter, mashed potatos, chips, cheesecake. And I am sure I am forgetting something.
My reaction to all this? (besides feeling a bit out of control , but also enjoying the freedom to eat without feeling badly, cause I really didnt feel badly for eating it), but my body FREAKED out to all the sugar! Never in a million years did I think I would have reaction to sugar, and it took till the second day for me to realize what it was. ( and talking to Alec about it) . My pulse was racing, racing. NOT even kidding. When I tried to sleep was when I really noticed it, I felt like I was on speed ( not that I know what that is like, but I felt like this is what one would feel IF they were on speed ) I also was never hungry , but kept eating anyway, cause I wasnt NOT going to eat something, cause this was my day to eat! lol It was a huge eye opener, to what I must have put my body through when I ate that way on a daily basis.
I had a food hangover come Sunday Morning, but I ALSO headed right to the gym for Angela's cycle class, then had one of the best runs I have had in MONTHS after cycle class. I burned over 800 calories and felt awesome when leaving the gym. I ALSO did a pull up. without help, I did have to curl my knees up and I think that is cheating a bit, but I got my chin up over the bar and doing so made me feel very strong , and empowered.
Angela and I had a very deep conversation after our workout. and we talked about all the craziness that goes on in our head about all this. Weight loss, and food. There is so much mentalness that goes on with it all. My goal in 2011 is to work through some of the mentalness.
Losing the weight could turn out to have been the easy part. Getting my mind to catch up to my body could be the hard part.
Yes! I'm completely convinced that its the mindset change that makes for successful maintenance which is why maintenance is harder than weight loss. I hope you continue to share with us your journey. I'll say again - I believe that the patience and persistence you demonstrated on those last excruciatingly slow 10 pounds is the best start to maintenance you could have had. Once the high of reaching goal has worn off, you're going to need those two "p"s.
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