it was a good week!

I broke thru that plateau FINALLY! that was a bitch, and I am happy its behind me.
But I also had a great run today. I have a 10k coming up in May, and my friend and I run every Sunday. I do short runs throughout the week, but Sundays are my long runs. Today we planned to do 6 hilly miles. when we got to the last hill, it was killing me and I had to walk the last half of it. around mile 4 my legs starting getting really tight. it really seemed like it was more than 6 miles. So when we were finished I got in my car and drove it. yeah it was 6.9 , almost 7 miles.
That is INSANE to me to think that I ran that! last summer I couldnt run 1 minute... I just ran 6.9 miles...

That was a good week!

Hello Plataeu

Nice to see you again. You have visited me before, and stayed for a month, But I do think your overstaying your welcome this time. Not that I didnt know you were going to show up plateau , I knew you would be coming, I just didnt want to see you just yet.
I knew this would happen, I knew that I would hang out with you for a while, and we would become , not friends, but well known to one another, I just didnt want to know you so well right now, I Was hoping we would get to know one another in about another 15 pounds or so.

Jan 24th was the last time I lost any weight. I took measurements on the 28th of Jan, and will take them again on the 28th of Feb. At that time , if nothing has changed, I will start freak out mode. untill then, I am doing my best to be ok with this visit, and keep doing what I have been doing for the past 14 months that has brought me such success. count all my calories, in and out, Spend at least 5 days a week working out, doing cardio and lifting weights, and running. I have had my trainer look at my food diary and I am following his advice, ( although, pat on the back for me, he didnt have much to critize ) . I will not let this visit from the "P" win .

Plataeu , You have overstayed your welcome, please go now....

I was talking to a customer yesterday that had had the lap band in DEC. she has lost 36 pounds since then. wow, good for her, I am happy she is taking the weight off. But the thing that gets me are the little things she said when she was talking about it.
1. The doctors made her lose 10% of her body weight before the would do the surgery, So she had to lose 30 pounds. Ok here is my thing, if you were able to lose the 30 pounds to do the surgery, dont you think you would think " hey, maybe I dont need to surgery, I can do this on my own!" But no, ok, I understand the want and need for a quick fix, I was there.

2. She was explaining how the lap band works, and she kept calling it her " safety net" " it wont let me overeat" . All I could think was ' what are you teaching yourself by doing this, by having your safety net ' do you know what the right amount of food your body needs to be fueled is? do you know what a portion size is? and I mean for your family, not for you , cause you have your safety net. do you know how many grams of sugar are in things? do you know how many carbs you should be eating in a day, how much sodium?how much Fat? what you need to burn calorie wise?
All these things are things that I have learned over the past 13 months, things I am happy to fill my brain with. and maybe she will learn these things, but I am happy, and PROUD that I learned them while losing the weight, TO lose the weight.
I am happy that people that have the surgery lose weight, I just wish they believed in themselves enough to know that they could have done it without surgery, it could have been done a healthy way, By no means is this the easy way, its ALOT of hard work, and a long journey, but I am so proud that I have done it. I proved to myself that I am strong and that I can do anything I want badly enough...

Running, again!

I know I already posted a post about running , But I wanted to post about my run today. Today I went by myself on a run. I was laying in bed very sad, and very tired. ( My grandfather passed away on Friday) . I was laying there and thought I need to get up and run, just get dressed and go. So I did. I went on the same run that I started on last July, the one that I did the C25K on. The one that I couldnt even run 60 seconds on without stopping. I went 45 minutes without stopping today! I did the loop, and did it again, and then turned around and went backwards so I could hit the hills going up. I just kept going and going and going, I felt like Forest Gump!
I am glad that I did that run alone, it was just me and my music, not really my thoughts, I dont like thinking while I run, I like letting the beat of the music make me go and that is the only thing that I think about while I run.
so if any of you ever think you cant run, think again. YES YOU CAN!

Gastric Bypass

I think it was Dec of 2004, and I had made an appointment with the DR at Valley Medical hospital to see if that was the thing for me. I had honestly thought that I was just going to be fat forever unless I had this surgery. it was going to be my miracle that I had been waiting for, cause seriously, I had tried everything else and I never lost weight, so this must be my last choice, right?
I sat through about 4 hours of testing, pretty much of nurses telling me how my weight was killing me, and all the bad things that were going to happen to me if I didnt lose the weight, Well Duh, I knew that, that was the whole reason I was there to begin with! after about 4 hours, I was only then told that my insurance wouldnt cover the surgery, but I could try to finance it. Yeah right, that was not going to happen. if I couldnt have it covered by insurance, I would not be having it done. I left very dissapointed, and with a $1000.00 bill. Nice.

I also didnt "diet" again till 2007.

I have people ask me now how I lost the weight, " did you have surgery"? they ask. I proudly say " No, I didnt, I did it the right way, with counting all my calories, and tons of exercise" . Sometimes they seem like they wanted me to say " YES, I had most of my stomache blocked off and I cant eat a thing now without throwing up" .
I am living proof that this can be done the right way, dont even think you cant, Cause if I can, anyone can. :)

bad thyroid

I honestly thought I had one. Why else would I be so overweight? Why else couldnt I lose weight? Clearly it had to be the fact that my thyroid was off. IT couldnt be because I over ate, or that I enjoyed eating a bag of chips at night, ( ok maybe half a bag) or that I had HUGE portion sizes. or that I didnt exercise, no, it was cause of my bad thyroid.
I even went to the DR and had it tested. Guess what? It was totally fine. ( Damn it) I was so stunned by those results, that I believe I Gained another 10 pounds.
I just figured I Was not a person that could lose weight, I was going to be a huge person for the rest of my life, cause every time that I had tried to lose wieght in the past ,I couldnt get past 10 pounds, I figured my body just COULDNT lose weight.
Little did I know that my mind was stopping me from losing weight. I wasnt ready to be fit and healthy , so therefor, I wasnt. once my mind was ready to lose weight and be a healthy person, my body followed.
its amazing what mind over matter can do to you.

Another Compare pic!

had to post this one too!