Monday, July 18, 2011

What keeps you motivated today?

People ask me all the time what keeps me motivated. And what keeps me motivated today, may not be the same thing that kept me going last week, or last month, or even last year. Sure, the overall reasons I stay doing what I am doing are the same, ( being healthy, feeling this amazing, even just waking up every day as THIS person, in THIS body as appose to the one I was waking up in 3 short years ago, ) even as those simple things keep me motivated overall, something has to keep me motivated on a daily basis. So if you ask me that today, you will most likely get a different answer than you did last month.
Today it may be the family wedding coming up this weekend, and the dress I want to wear ( although I am going with a different dress than the one I had planned but that is only cause my mom came from Vegas for the wedding, and her dress is the same color as the one I was going to wear and I do NOT want to be matchy matchy with my mommy). BUT I have another wedding to go to in August that I plan to wear that amazing dress to.
Next week my motivation may come in the form of trying to work off whatever it was I ate and drank at the wedding, ;) .
Sometimes my motivation is from the sole fact that I do not, and will not gain back any of the weight that I worked so stinkin hard to lose. That I know I am worth it, that staying fit is worth it. That giving back to others , and helping them feel as amazing as I feel, is worth it.

I am not going to sit here and sugar coat it for you . It . IS. HARD. staying motivated. counting calories still, every day ( no matter what you think, that doesnt end when the scale shows you that magic number that you have worked so hard to see). And knowing that I still have to work just as hard, and workout just as much as I did before , just to maintain the weight loss, it is STINKIN HARD. BUT.........

OH MY GOODNESS.....

SO WORTH IT.....


I had a customer at the Nook today do the " I know I know you but are you really the same person who "use" to work here " thing in our conversation, and then she cut me off mid sentence and said " You look amazing, how did you do it" ? So after thanking her, I told her, and we chatted a bit, and she told me how she lost 50 pounds a couple of years ago, but in the last year has put it back on. I asked her if there was something that made her put the weight back on, ( an illness, new job that kept her from working out, ect) and you know what she said ? She said she just got lazy with what she was eating, and her special treat that she let herself have on a weekly basis, became more often than that, and she just couldnt help herself. I just wanted to give her a big hug and let her know that that is EXACTLY what I have been thinking about, and I know what she meant, and I know how easy it can be to let the weight come back. And that is why I am still counting my calories, and working out just as much as I did before. Because it CAN happen so easily... I get it.

I do not want anyone to think that I am perfect, because I am not. I keep the thought of re gaining weight in my mind on a daily basis, I just can not let it happen. Because it is so easy....

I hope she finds her way back to South Beach and gets going in the right direction again. ( She had lost weight with the South Beach diet plan) Its hard to get yourself started up again, But once you get going, its easier than you think.

I think when we lose the weight, we all have the empty fat cells , just waiting and waiting for us to eat something bad so they can grab it and have a party with it. and the more we eat, bad, or even just in excess of good calories, (cause calories are calories when it comes down to it) our old lonely fat cells are just sitting there, waiting for some party favors.

That is one party I plan to be a party poo per on for years to come.....



Have a happy and Healthy week !

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

GroupHealth Magazine has arrived and I am the centerfold!



Here it is , the link to the article that went out in the summer publication for GroupHealth Magazine. You can read it here . I was beyond excited when it showed up in the mail on Saturday, I wasnt expecting it so soon, ( not like I wasnt stalking the mail or anything, I wouldnt do such a thing) ;0)


And the picture again that was used is above.


I just love this, I love that this is me. I hope so badly that someone who is struggling with their weight, and who is feeling hopeless and lost, will read this and know that they can change their life too, and that they can feel as wonderful as I do. and it would the world to me if someone changed their life because they were inspired by my story.








Sunday, July 3, 2011

Sunday, June 26, 2011

New goal

I have a new weight loss goal.
I have found that it is very easy to get comfy with where you are, and even though that where I am at is totally fine, I do not like the comfy feeling.
I want to lose 5 pounds in the next 27 days. Totally do able. What is in 27 days you ask? My cousins wedding. Where I want to where a very sexy dress that I borrowed from my friend Katrina, and even though it fits just fine right now, I will feel very confident if I lose 5 pounds.
Losing those 5 pounds will also bring me to a new all time low. so two goals will be reached in one.

I will keep you all posted , next Sunday the 3rd, I will post again. I will be having a major cheat day on the 4th with Margaritas and cake pops, But other than that, I am cutting out all alcohol and sugar, even cutting back on my favorite fruits. Not cutting out carbs, but I do plan to cut out carbs after 5 pm.

Again, will keep you posted. :)

Love having goals , they keep you going in the right direction!

Have an awesome week <3

Saturday, June 18, 2011

A few things I have been thinking about

I have been thinking about this alot lately. and more so because of the feelings, and feedback I have been getting and feeling.
First and foremost, Most people are not this way, I really want to point that out from the start. This is NOT what I think of most people . BUT , the few that do feel this way, SOMETIMES really ruin it .

People are just waiting for you to fail.

pure and simple.

People are waiting to see you gain the weight back, and the second you do, they will for sure be there to point it out.

It has been 6 months since I reached my goal weight. And the 'world' has known it. I have been on national TV , telling everyone who watched how much I use to weigh, and how much I weigh now. I have this blog, I have a Facebook Fan page , sharing with anyone, my weight loss journey and woes, I am very open and public on all aspects of my weight loss. And because of that, I know, I have opened myself up to public criticism, and I am OK with that.

BUT, I am NOT OK with people waiting to see me gain the weight back. Guess what? Its NOT.Gonna. Happen.

I worked Too hard, for TOO long, to let that happen. It has become a lifestyle, this good way of eating and working out. I am not going to just sit my ass on the couch with a bag of Doritos and oreo's and a bottle of wine , night after night. ( Although , TRUST ME, it sounds VERY GOOD) . its just not going to happen, so you can stop wondering if I am " maintaining my weight" or if I am going to gain my weight back, cause I WILL WIN.

I am not going to lie, I gain and lose the same 5 pounds every month. It is HARD FRIGGIN work to stay at 143 pounds, and my body is not a fan of it. I have to be super perfect and right on, every day to stay there. and hello, I am anything but. BUT , that being said, I have maintained my size 6 , since Nov when I reached my goal weight. And I am SO OK WITH THAT!

I wish people were not so judgemental, but they are, I wish people were not waiting to see me gain all my weight back, but sadly, some are. I wish people were happy for what I have achieved, but sadly, some are not.

But its OK. Cause I am. I am so happy with what I have done, and I love the life I have made because of my weight loss.

So please, all you people waiting for me to gain weight back, Stop. I am going to win.