What a week its been .

So much emotion has gone on within me in the last week, And so much more to come in the next 5 days I am sure.
I hit my goal weight on Monday, ( what a great way to start the week!) I am actually below by 1/2 a pound. I didnt even really get to process the whole hitting my goal thing cause I had to go to work, and everytime I thought about it , I started to cry, and was ruining my makeup so I had to stop thinking about it. Still havent had time to really think about it . I want to though, I really want to spend some time on the thought.
But I have had all this other stuff going on, getting ready for the Today show. that has been taking up all my spare thoughts . :) Today I had to go up to the local NBC station here in Seattle , KING 5, and record my track. this is the little bit that you will hear in the beginning of my story when you also get to see All my lovely before pictures. I was concerned that I wouldnt get through it without crying , but it was no problem , I think cause I read it so much to Emily, the producer, My co-worker and my hairdresser, that by the time I read it in the sound booth I was fine ( plus the half of anti anxiety pill that my DR gave me couldnt have hurt.) lol So It was fine, I was fine.
Then I went over to my friend Dena Brandt's house, she is a national director for Cookie Lee, and she helped me pick out some jewelry for the show, How Fun was THAT?? !!
And tonight , as I type this, I am about 1 hour away from teaching my first Boot Camp class at the gym. Am I nervous about that? yes, I think I really am. I wouldnt be too upset if it was a small group for the first night. :)
So thats about it, two more work days till the weekend, I have a few little errands to run around and do on SAT, but not too much, trying to keep it a quiet day. I leave Early Sunday morning with Maegan for NY. Excited doesnt BEGIN to describe how I am feeling .

THE TODAY SHOW!

I will be ON IT!!! On Monday Nov 15th, I will be on with Kathie Lee and Hoda, and Joy and be the newest member of the JOY FIT CLUB! How AH MA ZING is that???
Over the Summer I had emailed them to tell them about myself ( everyone said I should be on TV, so why not give it a shot?) so I did, then nothing.. then you know what happens? You forget that you did email them. And you go about your life... then one morning ( WED ) you are getting ready and go in the kitchen and see you have a new email on your phone. Jake in the meantime is talking to you about who knows what, cause as soon as you see its from the JOY FIT CLUB and the TODAY SHOW , you freak out ( cry actually) and Jake is looking at you like what the heck is wrong with you? I ran upstairs and got on my laptop and read the email again ( like reading it on the computer was better cause it was bigger than a BB, lol) and I read it and read it.. 5 lines is all it was, and a phone number. Call the producer if interested . ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? I didnt have to think for a minute, not even for a second, I called her! Got a VM , ( naturally) and left a message. Finished getting ready all while Sam reminded me that we were running late. lol I wouldnt post it on Facebook till I told a friend first, I didnt want her to read it on FB. so I waited and waited for her to call me. She thought I was waiting for her to comment on the cute sweater dress and leggings, ( which she had ) that I was wearing that day, she didnt know that I needed her to call still... FINALLY she called as I was sitting in Starbucks , ( I think they thought I was nuts) . And we both freaked out. In the meantime, as I waited for the producer to call me back, I was signing papers with Chrissy at LA Fitness as the new instructor for the Bootcamp class. . Mind totally not on focus with her, and I finished up and left the gym, to check my phone and of course, had missed her call.
Finally talked to her and she asked if I was able to come to NY on the 14th to be on the show on the 15th . Of course I am able to do that ,I have no plans, wide open! lol fast fast fast , is how it has moved since then, Next week will be crazy too.
I will try to keep you posted this week on it all. I am all wonky right now..
Hugs to you all!

I posted on My fitness pal the pictures below

My before picture,and My current picture :and while I was posting these pictures to compare my 181 pound weight loss, it made me very VERY sad when I looked at the two photos.
( And dont ask me WHY this is all underlined and in blue, that was not my intention, but, to be honest, I dont care enough to figure out why so we will all have to deal with it )
Anyway, OHH look , its gone! :)
anyway. Back to me being very sad, cause after all , this is my blog and its all about me :)
I looked at the picture, looked at my face, looked at my neck, my arms , my BOOBS , my stomach, my EVERYTHING. and I am sad that THAT WAS ME. and that I let myself become that. LOOK at those two pictures, can you believe its the same person? cause I cant and it is ME!!! So I can understand if you are thinking the same thing.

This weight loss is so mental, and the closer I get to my goal ( hello, did you see my ticker, do you see that I am 4 POUNDS AWAY?) I am having a harder and harder time with the mental stuff.... We wont talk about that.

What we WILL talk about is:

I am getting my going to be cycle instructor certified !!! I am also going to be teaching Bootcamp at LA Fitness! starting in less than 2 weeks ( if all goes as planned). I cant wait to share my passion for fitness with others! AND to get paid while doing so, how great is that? HELLO!!!! :)

12 hour workout challange complete!!!

Angela and I thought it would be "fun" to workout 12 hours this weekend, 6 hours both days. We thought it would be a challenge that we could see 1, how many calories we could burn, and 2, what our bodies could endure, she also got her co-worker Tyler, and her friend Brenda to join us.

We burned over 4700 calories in the two days, and our bodies endured the following : 2 hours of spin class, 2 hours of bootcamp 2 hours of cardio machines, 8 miles of walking/ running, 1 hour of pilates, 1 hour of yoga, 30 mins of swimming, 1 hour of weight training, over the two days.
We were all wiped out the first day, I crashed by 9 pm, and when my husband came home around 8 pm he said I looked like crap ( tired) we didnt drink gatorade or anything like that till late in the day on SAT, big mistake, headache big time. Also forgot our Advil. not too sore Sunday AM, but I felt it for sure. Sunday was much better. We were tired on Sunday, burned less calories, and were ready to leave the gym , BIG TIME. The weather was CRAP, we were planning a 90 minute hike at the end of Sunday, and had to do a walk/run cause the rain and wind was so bad we couldnt hike. tyler complained about the lunges in bootcamp, so I made him do more, I can do lunges till the cows come home, so those didnt hurt me :) Brenda who is in AMAZING shape, was sore as heck today, when you do things you dont normally do, your body takes notice. I am sore tonight, my butt hurts.....
We ate the whole time, and drank gallons of water. IT was awesome to finish what we set out to do.

FYI, my " if every day were like today " on my fitness pal said I would lose over 25 pounds in 5 weeks. So there ya go, 5 pounds a week, this is how the biggest loser people do it!

Did you see that?

did you see that my ticker MOVED!! and not just a little, it moved BIG TIME! 6 more pounds BABY!!! And another size 6 jeans slid on this morning ... just saying.
Last week someone asked me " do you see yourself as someone who has lost 178 pounds, or someone who has 7 pounds to still lose?"
Good Question... Made me think. didnt want to think, not about that. But I did. and honestly, I see myself as someone who has 7 pounds to lose ( well 6 now ), and not the 178 that I have lost. NOT that what I have done is any small feat, cause I know its pretty frickin amazing , its AH MA ZING , but I am not at the goal that I Set, and right now that is what I am focused on , reaching my goal. So yes, I see myself as someone who still has 6 pounds to go. When I hit my goal weight , and I have lost 185 pounds, I will then look at myself as someone who is maintaining her 185 pound weight loss, and wakes up every day KNOWING what I have done is AH MA ZING, and feel AMAZING, and is happy , every day I wake up happy, how awesome is that? Life is good .

long time no post

I really tried this past week, but something was wrong with my internet and not it just wasnt loading well, so I gave up.
anyway, its been a very long couple of weeks, with work and workouts. I had a crazy week last week with a few days of over 1000 calories burned, yes, you read that right. I had two nights where I was at the gym for 3 hours, If that is what its gonna take to zap these last few pounds off of me, that is what I will do.
I have had a few things said to me this past week that doesnt sit well with me at all. And I am going to bitch about it here.
. When people tell me I am good, I dont need to lose any more weight.
I HATE THIS. for the sole reason that I am NOT DONE, I have not reached my goal that I set out to reach. I will not just stop where I am at cause I look "fine". If I did that ,I would feel like I failed to reach my goal. regardless of the weight I have lost ,I will feel like I failed, because I didnt reach the goal that I set out to do. I think people dont get it, when you have been overweight your whole life ( or as long as I can remember) I really want to be able to say for the first time " I have no weight to lose" not that I would walk around saying that, but people say all the time, " I would like to lose, 10, 20, 30 pounds" I dont want to still be able to say that. I dont really expect anyone to get it, but that is how I feel about it.
Sometimes I feel bad when people want me to help them , and I cant seem to do lose this last bit myself, so how can I help someone else??
On a Good note, and this is a very very good note. I bought my first pair of size 6 pants on Friday. Size 6. so I know that when I lose my last 9 pounds, I will fit into a 6 on pretty much every brand, not just one :) I still cant do the skinny jeans, I just have too muscular of the legs to pull that cut off, but that is OK . Loving the boyfriend jeans.. I even got my friend Jenn to like them after she said she would never wear them , :)
Posting a picture from this weekend that I really like of me :)

I wanted to share this with you guys

A Gal from My Fitness pal , shared her blog that was for me tonight. I so needed to read this :

This is for Tamishumate and all the other people who post about how hard it is to lose those last 10 pounds:

Hi,

I've been a MFP member for 8.5 months and had a lot of success so far. But I'm much more concerned about maintaining than I am about losing weight since I've had success like this in the past.

I know that a lot of people tell you what a great job you've done so far and rightfully so. But I want to tell you that I think that what you are doing right now - losing those last few pounds to get to goal - is the most impressive to me. I think you are at the hardest part when every pound comes off at what seems like a snail pace. I've been there so I know that it can be as discouraging as hell, especially when the first 50 - 60 - 75 seem now, in retrospect, to have just dropped off.

I don't follow you closely so the last time I looked at your profile you were at 15 pounds to go. Today, I looked you up again and you were at 9lbs! I remembered that you were feeling kind of down about how slowly the 15 were coming off so I was really happy to see you had lost 6. Congratulations!

I'm trying to work into a mental attitude that will help me maintain when I reach goal. I haven't worked it out all yet but part of it is that plateaus and the last-ten-pounds syndrome are trial runs for maintenance. They require you to keep on tracking what you eat, exercising heavily and regularly but without the thrills of weight loss and the public recognition that goes with it. In other words, just sheer dogged persistence.

Every time you write about the discouragement you feel at this last stage, how you are getting through the aches and pains of exercising without giving up, you inspire and remind me that this is an endless journey. There will be no "well, it doesn't matter now because I'm finished losing weight" thinking and NO GIVING UP.

I know you're going to hang in there. Thank you for sharing how tough it is going to be.

IT is so hard, And so hard to not just say " Ehh, I look good, just be done" But I CANT DO THAT, I have set a goal, and I must reach it, its no longer about the health and that I need to lose weight to be healthy ( in fact, I am insanely healthy, was told by my dr that with my blood pressure I will live a very long time, And this was only AFTER she had to go get a smaller cuff to take my blood pressure, they use to have to get the XL cuff, now they go looking for the smaller one) Anyway, its not about that, its about reaching the weight that I said I was going to do, its about seeing if the last 9 pounds will take care of the tummy that I hate having, its about seeing if I , TAMI SHUMATE, can be a size 6 , ( that is total vanity, I admit that ) . Its about , saying for the first time in my life, that I am at my goal weight , that I dont have any weight to lose. its about all that. I wont give up, I wont. I will figure out how to get rid of these last few pounds, and I will be able to say all that :)