I posted on My fitness pal the pictures below

My before picture,and My current picture :and while I was posting these pictures to compare my 181 pound weight loss, it made me very VERY sad when I looked at the two photos.
( And dont ask me WHY this is all underlined and in blue, that was not my intention, but, to be honest, I dont care enough to figure out why so we will all have to deal with it )
Anyway, OHH look , its gone! :)
anyway. Back to me being very sad, cause after all , this is my blog and its all about me :)
I looked at the picture, looked at my face, looked at my neck, my arms , my BOOBS , my stomach, my EVERYTHING. and I am sad that THAT WAS ME. and that I let myself become that. LOOK at those two pictures, can you believe its the same person? cause I cant and it is ME!!! So I can understand if you are thinking the same thing.

This weight loss is so mental, and the closer I get to my goal ( hello, did you see my ticker, do you see that I am 4 POUNDS AWAY?) I am having a harder and harder time with the mental stuff.... We wont talk about that.

What we WILL talk about is:

I am getting my going to be cycle instructor certified !!! I am also going to be teaching Bootcamp at LA Fitness! starting in less than 2 weeks ( if all goes as planned). I cant wait to share my passion for fitness with others! AND to get paid while doing so, how great is that? HELLO!!!! :)

12 hour workout challange complete!!!

Angela and I thought it would be "fun" to workout 12 hours this weekend, 6 hours both days. We thought it would be a challenge that we could see 1, how many calories we could burn, and 2, what our bodies could endure, she also got her co-worker Tyler, and her friend Brenda to join us.

We burned over 4700 calories in the two days, and our bodies endured the following : 2 hours of spin class, 2 hours of bootcamp 2 hours of cardio machines, 8 miles of walking/ running, 1 hour of pilates, 1 hour of yoga, 30 mins of swimming, 1 hour of weight training, over the two days.
We were all wiped out the first day, I crashed by 9 pm, and when my husband came home around 8 pm he said I looked like crap ( tired) we didnt drink gatorade or anything like that till late in the day on SAT, big mistake, headache big time. Also forgot our Advil. not too sore Sunday AM, but I felt it for sure. Sunday was much better. We were tired on Sunday, burned less calories, and were ready to leave the gym , BIG TIME. The weather was CRAP, we were planning a 90 minute hike at the end of Sunday, and had to do a walk/run cause the rain and wind was so bad we couldnt hike. tyler complained about the lunges in bootcamp, so I made him do more, I can do lunges till the cows come home, so those didnt hurt me :) Brenda who is in AMAZING shape, was sore as heck today, when you do things you dont normally do, your body takes notice. I am sore tonight, my butt hurts.....
We ate the whole time, and drank gallons of water. IT was awesome to finish what we set out to do.

FYI, my " if every day were like today " on my fitness pal said I would lose over 25 pounds in 5 weeks. So there ya go, 5 pounds a week, this is how the biggest loser people do it!

Did you see that?

did you see that my ticker MOVED!! and not just a little, it moved BIG TIME! 6 more pounds BABY!!! And another size 6 jeans slid on this morning ... just saying.
Last week someone asked me " do you see yourself as someone who has lost 178 pounds, or someone who has 7 pounds to still lose?"
Good Question... Made me think. didnt want to think, not about that. But I did. and honestly, I see myself as someone who has 7 pounds to lose ( well 6 now ), and not the 178 that I have lost. NOT that what I have done is any small feat, cause I know its pretty frickin amazing , its AH MA ZING , but I am not at the goal that I Set, and right now that is what I am focused on , reaching my goal. So yes, I see myself as someone who still has 6 pounds to go. When I hit my goal weight , and I have lost 185 pounds, I will then look at myself as someone who is maintaining her 185 pound weight loss, and wakes up every day KNOWING what I have done is AH MA ZING, and feel AMAZING, and is happy , every day I wake up happy, how awesome is that? Life is good .